a really bad day.

My best friend describes a good day as one that no one dies.
Ya'll today was a BAD day.
This morning I was taking some soup over to my brother and sisters house when all of the sudden it spilled.
I have NEVER had my crockpot spill in the car. NEVER.
I pulled over into an empty parking lot across the street from the highway. I called my husband as I cleaned out the car and figgured out a new plan of attack. I got back in my car put the car in reverse when all the sudden I heard squealing breaks. I looked up just in time to see a tow truck hauling a fed ex truck barrel through the intersection sparks flying hit a car. the car was instantly smashed and the truck pushed it about 1/2 a mile. It was the worst thing i've ever seen. I knew the driver was gone. There was no way to have survived. As soon as I heard the impact I called 911. I had the baby with me so I couldn't go check on the driver and there were other witnesses already over there. I scared my husband and my mother with my freaked out calls to them. It was horriable. All day long every time I close my eyes I see that impact. I'm hoping that writing this out will help. About an hour ago the police department here posted the details of the accident with the persons name. He was a beloved deacon at his church.
It's something i can't explain. I just cant get my thoughts about this accident out of my head. I'm fine. I'm okay just disturbed.

growing up.

It seems there has been a lot of growing ups going on in our home lately. Eldest and Supernova have had a lot of "growth explosions".
Eldest is almost finished with 8th grade and looking toward high school and what she wants to do with her life. She is making and tossing decisions life, liberty and HER pursuit of happiness all with the maturity of one far beyond her age. She also had her first dance. We looked up the definitions of semi-formal and planned accordingly UNFORTUNATELY the weather had other ideas but thanks to our neighborhood thrift store we were still able to save the day. She is now in possession of a little black dress. ( her father about had a heart attack when he saw it on the hanger.) She looked beautiful. I was concerned about the amount of girls who would be wearing fancy pageant like dresses and her feeling frumpy. She didn't care, she was beautiful and she knew it PLUS she was excited about how we did her makeup, a fancy up-do and and beautiful dress for 5.00 when her friends spent HUNDREDS. Like I said maturity beyond her years. Sometimes I wonder how we raised a young lady like her. It also gives me hope for the other two girls ;)

Supernova has started signing like mad. A lot of his signs are the same though like chicken, more, and cup. So you know hes telling you he wants SOMETHING your just not sure what. He's also talking more he can say kiki and cook cook which mean pretty much anything that he can eat so we hear that word A LOT. He has learned to help pick up stuff so you never know where something will end up you just know its in a tote.
He helps get himself dressed. He show you what he wants. He has also started doing something else I'm not allowed to mention... hint it involves 8 hours of quiet. It can get crazy around here now.  I love having a toddler around again! I miss this age so much. It is an age of discovery toddlers learn new things EVERYDAY. Today he decided that it was time to go outside to play. NAKED. It was 34 deg outside. Got exposed to a HUGE temper tantrum for not letting him go play. Once he gets outside all he wants to do is walk around. I love it!

He has also learned how to open the girls' bedroom door he knows there is a kitty in there and super cool toys that he's not allowed to have. He loves playing with his doggy. He chases her around the house and trys to pick her up ( not a good idea!) 

best of all we love those doggy kisses! BLECH! 

Life is amazing! 

Happy Birthday Little One!

November 8th 2011 Supernova was born.
It doesn't seem like a year.
My baby, my chubby bubby, my Supernova is one.
Such a short time to fall so completely head over heels in love with someone.
To see the grow and develop so many skills.
To see the child he is becoming.

He still isn't walking but he's trying to. Supernova loves to eat almost anything you give him.
He loves his little boy blue and wont nap without his friend. He LOVES to play with his sisters, especially hide and seek and peek a boo. He hates afternoons.. mommy is to busy to play and he can smell food but no one gives him any. He's our precious baby.

11 months... sigh...

Happy 11th month anniversary! You are growing so much! You now have four teeth and a 5th almost in. You can crawl faster the the speed of light.. Or it at least feels that way sometimes! Right now your favorite thing to do is pull down everything you can get your hands on. You want to see EVERYTHING. Your favorite thing to play with is a roll of toilet paper. I know, i know.. it's crazy and I don't know why but it is. You can stand for long periods of time but don't really show an intrest in walking, but that doesn't surprise me since you have three "Grrs" to do your bidding. You decided MA-MA is more than just a sound and you call for me sometimes. We do lots of field trips to the park to play.

 Last week we went to the science center with one of your sisters. You had so much fun climbing in and on things. They had a splash pool area that was just your size and when you saw it had duckies you were sooo happy. You are finally taking ( or letting us give you) baths again. For the last month or so you have been getting baths in the sink because the tub scared you to much.  You eat just about anything you can get your hands on. This weekend you had ribs for the first time. Those ribs were just the right size for carrying around and teething on. You have mastered feeding your "DA" both dropping food out of the high chair for her and feeding her ABC food out of your hands. So right now you are one of her favorite people. You like it when she comes up and licks you. You sleep in your own room now. Which makes mommy remember her little baby is growing up. Soon it will be Halloween, You are dressing up like Rory from Dr. Who. It was " GRRs" choice not mine. Then soon after that your baptism and your FIRST BIRTHDAY!! It's going to be a fun few weeks for you little man! Mommy loves you so much!

1st painting

Today Supernova and I finger painted for the first time.

I really wasn't expecting him to play with the paint much, just eat it. He really did enjoy it though. He had a blast squishing around in the paint. He did eat quite a bit but thats okay too. Once the paint dries a bit i'll peel the stickers off and we will have a painting with his name on it :).
My advice to mommies trying to do art for the first few times. Be realistic with both yourself and your baby. They may not like the feeling of whatever you are doing. You will spend a lot more time setting up and cleaning than you will actually creating. You will make a HUGE mess. It is okay to not do art with your baby. It's not for everyone and not for every baby. Strip the baby down. naked or in disposible diaper. and make sure they aren't afraid of the bath tub because your baby will look like this

10 months old

10 months 

Someone is growing into a big boy!

You are actively playing both by yourself and with others. Your favorite toy this month is the Wii remote because it has a squishy cover on it and you like to chew on it. You spent the weekend in Huntsville visiting family last week. You played peek - a -boo with everyone. You also got into to EVERYTHING. You LOVE to explore. I think you like getting into things more than anything sometimes. You got to meet your Uncle B. for the first time. I was really surprised you didn't yank on his beard. You really like your Uncle.. he gave you cake and ice cream!!  You have learned a fun game called take things out of cabinets, buckets, ect. and dump them on the floor. It makes a mess but it's an important part of your development.  You have mastered clapping and dancing. Your favorite song is the Veggie-Tales theme song and the Barney song. Your sisters and I think you need better taste in music.You can walk along furniture now and crawl up on the couch. You still only have two teeth but there is more coming. At least two others have broken through and 2 more are waiting to bust out. Your sisters started back to school and you miss them during the day,when Indiana barks it means your "girls" are home. You crawl to the back door clapping and laughing waiting for them, but when they come in they can be loud and rowdy and it kinda bothers you. You have also started asking for DADA? You go to a door bang on it and ask for him. He was gone this week and you REALLY missed him. You asked for him a lot and you would roll over in bed pat his side and say dada? dada? You are getting so big and so sweet. Mommy loves you bubby. You are up from your nap and if I don't come get you it will just ruin your whole afternoon and we don't want that! 

The only one

Once again I was asked not to help with something because of the baby. People this is getting old. I am really sick of hearing don't you have someone to watch him? and You know we have child care down the hall right? Supernova is my child. Is it so unheard of that he should stay with his mother and not a stranger? I'm trying really hard right now not to be REALLY mad and hurt.. I dont want to make rash decisions. I hurt. I really do. I really wish there was some way to meet other stay at home moms around here. Although I think i've figured out why I can't find any, They just plain aren't wanted. They stay at home with thier children not going anywhere except Walmart, because Walmart wants everyone. Eldest's youth minister wrote something in this months newsletter that really struck a chord in me...
The cost of not being hospitable and loving at church is much higher than lost funds.  We are not selling a product or a service, or an entertainment that someone might want to do.  How we treat people (visitors and long-term members alike) is a direct reflection on Jesus, since we as the church are His hands and feet.  
I think that others in this church and city could learn something from him.  We are also taught to follow the "golden rule" To treat others the way we wish to be treated". I can only say after these experiances I am going to try harder to push aside my fears and be more welcoming to people I meet. Even if they are just the cashiers at Walmart ;)